Solitaire

By Alice Oseman

In compliance with FTC guidelines, I am disclosing that I received this book for free through Goodreads First Reads. 

I recently finished reading a book where the main character begins to write down the story of her life; her hope is that someone will read it and know they are not alone in the world. 

I believe that is what this book can do for people. 

What I love about the Young Adult genre is that the characters seem to make really bad decisions; however, they are the exact same decisions I would have made at sixteen. There are times when I feel like a character is acting irrational and immature, and then I remember how much confidence I lacked in high school. 

I'm only twenty-three, but I've grown so much since I've left high school. High school sucked because I switched schools, and it was awful because no one wanted to be my friend. It was awful because I was awful at math but great at english. I felt awkward and uncomfortable, and I think a lot of people feel this way. I think it's completely normal to feel this way, and it. gets. better. 

I enjoyed Solitaire because of the way Alice Oseman silently describes depression. 

I don't know anyone who really wants to be sad; I only know people who want to be happy. I only know people who crave happiness, but they understand sadness as well. This book was wonderful because Tori didn't understand why she was sad, but she seems to want to be better. She is constantly searching to feel something. 

“I don’t want people to be worried about me. There’s nothing to worry about. I don’t want people to try and understand why I’m the way I am, because I should be the first person to understand that. And I don’t understand yet. I don’t want people to interfere. I don’t want people in my head, picking out this and that, permanently picking up the broken pieces of me.”

If my friends were to pick apart all the times I was sad then it would feel as if they were judging me. My friends have always supported me when I've been sad, and I've always supported them as well. Sadness is a true emotion, and it doesn't get the credit it deserves. I don't want anyone to belittle my feelings, because they are my feelings. I don't want to belittle my friends' emotions, because they are their emotions. I think the best thing I can do for someone is to listen and support them when they are feeling a certain way, because then they know that someone cares; they know no one is expecting them to change. No one is asking them to change. 

I also enjoyed the relationship between Tori and Becky and Tori and Michael. I think we all go through a time when we realize the friends we made on the first day of high school are not the same people later in our lives. We change and they change; friends don't always stay best friends. It's okay to allow another person to be your friend if they make you feel like you can be yourself, and Michael seems to do that for Tori. 

I enjoyed reading this book, and I hope that someone reads it and realizes they are not alone.

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