I should probably start off by saying that I have a disgusting fear of the dark. I also hate leaving my toes uncovered in bed, because I can't help but imagine a bony hand pulling me under and taking me away in the middle of the night.
I started the Mara Dyer trilogy in my room, in the dark, with the blinds from my window open. I had to walk by countless mirrors while reading the first and second book, and I dashed across the second floor balcony and leapt from the hall into my bed more times than I would like to admit.
Most of my fears have been with me since I was eight years old and forced to take the trash to the road in the middle of the night after watching Jeepers Creepers, but some of my recent fear came straight from reading about Mara seeing people behind her in mirrors.
I avoided mirrors at all cost last week.
Mara is an interesting character, and Michelle Hodkin is a very talented writer. I had absolutely no idea what was going on with Mara the entire story, and I was completely hooked by the weirdness; I was intrigued by the idea that Mara could hurt people just by thinking about hurting them.
And each time she saw her friends, friends that had died, behind her in a mirror I was able to see them as well. And I felt her anger each time her mother didn't believe her.
This is not the longest review of a book I've ever written; however, there are two sentences from the story that I feel are important to me.
“Thinking something does not make it true. Wanting something does not make it real.”
Throughout the story Mara does not know what is real and what is not. The only people that seem to believe her are her brother, Daniel, and Noah. She isn't sure she even believes herself, and I was able to relate to that idea in my own way.
Thinking that people don't like me doesn't make it true. Thinking that I don't have as much talent as other people doesn't make it true. I think we can kill our own dreams ourselves. So maybe we should believe in our stories when other people are telling us they are good and real and important.
"You're not broken."
We don't need to be fixed, because we aren't broken. A lot of people deal with insecurity, and a lot of people go through time when they don't believe in themselves. Mara wants to be better, and I applaud her for that. I always want to be better than I was yesterday, and I want to learn from my insecurities and fears.
I want to be brave.
I really thought this story was frightening, and it was awesome to be scared while reading again.